A Lot Horrible…and A Little Good…

I am sitting with a warm cup of coffee and listening to Christmas music as my boys build wooden blocks on the floor.

Yes, I know it’s bit early for Christmas music…but I just can’t help myself.

I know that some are saddened that the hot weather has passed, but I have to say that I absolutely love this time of year.

The chill in the air, the coziness I feel in a warm sweater and baking seems so much more appropriate than in the summer.

I think warm fresh bread tastes better in the Fall and Winter.

Yesterday my five-year old son was asking to try a sip of my warm decaf-coffee. I humored him and waited for the response I’d get after he tried it.

He looked very thoughtful for a moment and said…“Well mommy…It’s a lot horrible…and a little good”. He got me thinking, as often my boys do with light bulb moments that remind me check in with my personal thought life.

It reminded me that far to often I allow one negative thing in my twenty-four hour days to dictate how my whole day is viewed.

The day can be going beautifully and there can be a terrible smudge that appears…a child misbehaving..an argument between brothers…so many good things can occur in a day….but then my positive view the day becomes destroyed. Just one minute is all it takes. Homeschooling has been a tremendous blessing, but there are those moments when you wish the school bus would come pick them all up. ( In a moment of frustration.)

Do you ever have this happen? Frustration attempts to take hold of your day…plowing through even  the most positive of days. Just that one event or moment takes charge of your attitude toward the rest of your day.

I have in fact been working on this in my heart and my head. Praying God would make me aware of my attitude and how I view the very breath He gave me…each second…not to neglect joy that He provides in my life, even when ugliness occurs.

So my goal this week is to make a habit of happiness.

When the things that make my day dark occur…I want to get through them and come out the other side still thankful and appreciative of the day, regardless of its bumps and pot holes that attempt to flatten my tires and take me off my path.

Be encouraged in moments like these.We can pass through the dark clouds and return to the bright day of sunshine first with the help and strength of the Lord, and our willingness to be aware and be prepared..to be proactive about the outcome of our attitude.


Hopscotching Through Life…

The heat wave that has bear hugged us until we can’t breathe has kept our family indoors most days. Morning time has been outside playtime, and afternoons….well…too hot even to go to the public pool.

Today was more pleasant than our most recent weather, although still a scorching 95 degrees and holding.

We took to the grass and sat in the shade and decided not to let this heat ruin our fun.

My two oldest ran around with binoculars all around the outside, hiding behind bushes…sneeking around…playing spies…

My two-year old and I managed to keep our wits about us as we chose to draw a hopscotch game on the driveway with sidewalk chalk.

I love to watch him jump on the hopscotch path. He throws the rock…it lands on a number and he hops, skips and jump on all of them…not even avoiding the number the rock landed on. He just giggles and loves every second.

As I am often reminded of life situations when seeing my children play or interact…I was one again intrigued in this moment.

As people, we grow into adults and follow the paths laid out in front of us…sometimes we don’t…some of us rebel from the path…go a complete different direction…either way…there are often barriers, hurt, anger, the rocks in our lives that land right where we are supposed to go…and sometimes in places we weren’t meant to go.

In life it’s easy to see big rocks in our path…sometimes they are boulders really..and we avoid them…walk around them…sometimes run…often hide until the rock is gone (we think it is)…and then continue on through life. Even the small pebbles, they may not obstruct our way, but soon, if not moved from our path…it becomes almost impossible to get through…

I’ve learned that it is imperative that we don’t run from those boulders or even little rocks that get in the way. Even small issues can completely snowball into something that changes who we are and how we deal with life and it’s situations.

I’ve spent my life running around the boulders that have blocked my way. Viewing them as a hazard, and avoiding the emotions and irritation it often causes. I was neglecting the need to process it the way God intended.

God knows these rocks by name…He knows where and when they are going to fall.

He’s just waiting for us to talk to Him. He wants us to daily seek Him so that we might be made aware of possible obstacles, and be ready when they land in front of us.

So as my sons rock landed on number six along the hopscotch board….he didn’t think twice..he just jumped…I want to so fully trust in the Lord that I can just jump and know completely that He’s carrying me right through it, no matter the size of the difficulty that lies in my path.

Don’t run away, rely of God’s mighty power…He is our strength and shield…our helper in time of need.

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts   in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.~Psalm 28:7

At All Times…

Throughout my life there has been a plethora of moments that have been the deciding factor on which way my life will go…which direction…

 Will I choose right or left…will I choose to sit on the fence on this decision or make a solid choice?

Most choices were made for me at a young age…as I aged…I made them…but sometimes still allowed others to choose for me  by caring too much what they would think of me…and I was left with the crumbling pieces of a decision that I wish I’d grasped and had made with God’s guidance.

Learning to make a decision and feel confident about the choice sometimes ends in a dramatic result that we wish we could have forfeited.

As I have made it into the thirties of adult life…I have discovered more than ever to be in prayer about things at all times.

This little decision we think so unnecessary to pray about…often are those choices that can completely change the direction of our path with each little choice…and each little step and footprint. Each choice leaves a mark or impression on the future and the choices we will make.

Prayer is not for just acquiring what we want or wish for…its about relationship…a consultation with the Savior…a conversation with your best friend…

He knows what’s best. We do not…yet we take it upon ourselves to add more to our life description than God intended when He created us. We than stress our minds with things that should be placed in the hands of the Almighty…for our hands are not big enough or strong enough to hold all the weight of life decisions.

We are not in charge…no matter what we think or say…we did not create ourselves…we are known by God…loved by God…and wanted by God as those who love Him back and choose Him above all else.

At all times…ask His strength to be with you…At all times…lay your life at His feet…

At all times…ask and it shall be given….At all times…seek and you shall find

May the Lord not just be a part of your decision making…let Him make it for you.

The Unpredictable…

As I look out my window this morning…in disbelief I stare…I blink to see if really…it’s snowing. 

Isn’t it Spring? Wasn’t it 80 degrees just a few days ago? Total Weather Confusion!

I am reminded as I watch the white snow drift through the sky…

although the weather changes unexpectedly …it can be totally unpredictable…

I am so thankful that I have a loving Lord that I can rely on…He is my one constant…

the same yesterday…today…and forever…

No matter the changes in the weather…or in my life…My Lord Jesus is there to catch me when I fall…to hold me on His lap and hug me when I need comfort and compassion…

He holds my hand and walks me through the unpredictable…and sometimes He even carries me…through the most unplanned  and unwelcome weather….

Compassionate and Gracious

1Praise the LORD,O my soul;all my inmost being, praise his holy name. 2 Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits–

3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,

.6 The LORD works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed. 

7 He made known his ways to Moses, his deeds to the people of Israel: 8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. 9 He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; 10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. 13 As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

14 for he knows how we are formed,he remembers that we are dust.15 As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field; 16 the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.

17 But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children– 18 with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.

19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven, and his kingdom rules over all. 20Praise the LORD, you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, who obey his word. 21Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts, you his servants who do his will. 22 Praise the LORD, all his works everywhere in his dominion. Praise the LORD, O my soul.

A Sacred Life!


A Sacred Life!

Yesterday kicked off Sanctity of Life week.
We should always remember how important the sanctity of life is whether a precious baby in the womb,adolescent, teen, middle-aged adult or a seasoned elder.
No matter how tiny a baby conceived may appear, it is a human life. We can argue the freedoms we have to choose into the ground, but as we decide whether abortion is murder or not…life’s are being extinguished every second.
I was also reminded yesterday through a brave post abortive woman the struggles a woman goes through and the pain they endure after going through an abortion. The emotional
regret and often physical damage.
So many pregnant women think abortion is their only option. An unwanted pregnancy to some can be a blessing to others.
Let’s stand up for life!
Instead of condemning those whom have aborted a child, pray for them…they carry far more of a burden than we realize.
Life is Sacred!
Let’s learn to value each individual person that God has created.

Psalm 139:13-14 (NIV)

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.


Yesterday I celebrated my 33rd birthday! WOW! Although I am not considered “Old” yet, I still feel as though I have lived a very full life already. I am so blessed to have met so many wonderful people and been to such amazing places. With all this in mind I am mostly thankful that I have been created to serve an Almighty God!

As we celebrated my special day I spent a lot of time thinking about the last thirty three years.
The time that stands out most to me has been the last decade.
In these last ten years I have struggled with personal anxiety. Strange anxiety! Unpredictable anxiety!
(Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7)

I know that I have addressed this topic before in my blog, but what I want you to know is that I see the turbulent ten years of anxiety as a challenge and a driving force in my life.

In my ability to look back at this last decade and see that even though it’s been tough at times, I’ve grown.
I also see my dependence on the Lord.
I think of Paul when he asked the Lord to take the thorn from his side. He asked the Lord to remove the thorn from his side three times and the Lord did not. We don’t know what that thorn represented – potentially a physical ailment? We just don’t exactly know.
(2 Corinthians 12:7-10)

What I do know is that my thorn has been anxiety (one of them anyway)… social anxiety particularly…
but I always found myself relying more heavily on my Heavenly Father and spending more time with him when I needed him, wanting to cry out for help.

It is often said that we grow more in the valleys of life then we do on the mountaintops. In my case, I can say it’s true. It may be a weakness to us, but God is able to work through us if we allow Him to.

What I have been challenged by is the thought that my time in prayer and in my Bible reading came mostly in my need. I want to always be in prayer, to need Him at all times, and to be prepared for battles seen and unseen. I don’t just want to think of Him, ask for His help, or lean on Him in my need…. I want to constantly be at His feet, praying for others, serving Him, and doing what He asks me to.

 This year I want to grow… grow in Him… the way He wants me to.

I want to learn more daily, to be unafraid of what He might reveal in my life. I am challenged and ready to continually put on the full armor of God!
 (Ephesians 6:10-18)
That is my desire! I want to know Him more and His purpose He has for me.

One Commentator refers to the thorn saying:

God will accomplish His purposes without taking from His servant the thorn that seems to hinder him.

Just because your thorn hasn’t been removed, doesn’t mean the Lord can’t use you!
I want to honor Him and serve Him… regardless of me… or of my thorn….
How about you? Are you letting the Lord use you regardless of your thorn?