The Fog Is Lifting…

I’m slowing being restored, my broken pieces are being placed in their rightful place.

I have peeked through the fog, and am now passing through it.

I am ready for it to be behind me and not look back.

I’m ready for all the color of life, the dark and smudged portions of my portrait to be clear and bright.

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Although these times that try the soul are unwelcome, the thankfulness and appreciation for life it does provide. We can see past the time stealers of lesser value and focus of the true meaning of our existence.

The Lord is good and His love endures forever!




Asking For Direction…

Fear clenches tightly to us when we allow it. Think of walking down streets you are unfamiliar with, looking for signs….where do I go?

Instead of being disoriented and lost without clear directions or a map ,we can know clearly which path to take if we stop long enough to ask.

Asking is the most important task…Asking the Lord…asking for His direction..His Peace and Strength…

Asking that He remind us to think of others who’ve made wrong turns, or who’ve gotten lost on streets nearby. To help those who are in need and to pray for those whom He brings to mind.  We all need direction…support….prayer…

The sign at the path I want to walk on say’s “Faith, Hope, and Love”.

All Doubt and Fear are unwelcome on this path…It won’t find me here….

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When we begin to open our eyes to the Joy before us, and the God holding us, what’s behind us doesn’t seem as frightening anymore.

If we just let the Lord map out our plan…our life…our control will not take us in a wrong direction…He will maintain us, uphold us and guide us through the life He has made for us. Just Let Go….Just Let Him walk you through every step…

Fear Not!

I enter the room…people chatting and talking…engaging…a friendly face approaches…and then another…chatting kindly….

As I stand attempting to speak I feel my feet begin to get heavy, they feel as though they weigh 20 pounds a piece…my ankles feel as though they may give way…my hands are going numb and the room is starting to move and closing in on me…yet I am still talking…trying to..but all the time thinking…what am I going to do?

My breathing becomes fast…rapid…attempting to correct it and resolve it with a natural breath…

For the last 9 years this has been my life.

I am a very social individual, so to struggle in this area feels like complete madness…

Over the years, I’ve been able to keep my anxiety disorder at bay or limited with prayer and helpful medication, but this past week…it returned…the worst of the symptoms…in what seems as every day normal situations.

I am certain that so many reading this struggle with something similar to what I am experiencing. I do feel for you, yet I know there is still hope for healing through Christ.

I continue to claim victory over this, yet I know in my heart that the Lord can use me and grow me in my valley’s…so He can prepare me to climb the high peaks.

I am working hard to develop a scripture filled thought life and work at ending the panic before it begins. Although my symptoms are physical, I desire to prevent the aftermath of panic when those symptoms arise. I want to get control over my reaction to those symptoms that my body insists on having.

Here are some scriptures that I’ve held close to my heart and have been helpful in many ways:

I can do all things through him who strengthens me. ~Phillipians 4:13

Seek the LORD and his strength;  seek his presence continually! ~1 Chronicles 16:11

 Fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed,  for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will  uphold you with my righteous right hand. ~Isaiah 41:10

The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?  The LORD is the stronghold of my life;  of whom shall I be  afraid? ~Psalm 27:1

For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power  and love and self-control.~2Timothy:7  

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world,” 1 John 4:4

 Although times such as this can be tremendously discouraging, we are not alone…in any case…anyone…be comforted in the knowledge that the Lord knew you in your Mother’s womb…and before you were even a thought….He knows you….He loves us and we can guarantee His love strength abides with us when we ask Him for help.

Instead of getting angry or depressed about our struggles, let’s claim VICTORY in the name of Jesus!!!

Darkness to Victory!!!!

I was but dust…He made me …and made me His

I was not worthy of forgiveness and love…

But He made me Worthy…

My sins dark and ugly….He was unable to look upon them…


He forgave me …and tossed my wrongs…my sin…into the furthest ocean…

I am His

I am in His hands…the Cleft Of The Rock

My Savior…Healer…King

The Victory is His

He is the Victory!!!

He Gave His own life…

sacrificed Himself for me..

His Pain and agony…He was bruised and beaten…

Placed on a cross…hands and feet nailed to the tree…

True Love….His Love given to me…His Everlasting Life…A Gift…

He’s Crowned with Glory and Honor…

He is Risen!!!! He is Risen Indeed!!!


Compassionate and Gracious

1Praise the LORD,O my soul;all my inmost being, praise his holy name. 2 Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits–

3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,

.6 The LORD works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed. 

7 He made known his ways to Moses, his deeds to the people of Israel: 8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. 9 He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; 10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. 13 As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;

14 for he knows how we are formed,he remembers that we are dust.15 As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field; 16 the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.

17 But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD’s love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children’s children– 18 with those who keep his covenant and remember to obey his precepts.

19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven, and his kingdom rules over all. 20Praise the LORD, you his angels, you mighty ones who do his bidding, who obey his word. 21Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts, you his servants who do his will. 22 Praise the LORD, all his works everywhere in his dominion. Praise the LORD, O my soul.

Cars, Monster Trucks and Strawberry Shortcake?

What a plan I had…really I did! It was a good plan…to take my 3 boys age 7, 4 and 2 shopping for two little friends birthday gifts….girl…friends…

So we buckled up and drove off to find some “girly gifts”.

We don’t shop frequently for unnecessary items…but of course that doesn’t end the ever-present desire for “I want this Mommy”, I wish I could have that Mommy!

I gave my speech on the way to the store…the typical one and also the speech I give when we are on our way to shop for someone…other then us…

“Boys…now listen up…we are going to look for some birthday gifts for our friends…we are not to ask for anything for ourselves…nor do we touch anything..and keep your voices quiet…People are trying to shop calmly…Do you hear me?”‘

“Yes Ma’am”…responded my two oldest, and a mild grunt from my 2-year-old…

Upon arrival we all latched hands and walked into the store. The first 5 minutes were relatively successful…but the last 10 a bit of a struggle….

“Mommy look at these monster trucks. We could buy some for our friends birthday! ” replied my 4-year-old.

“Sweetie we are buying gifts for girls, I don’t think monster trucks are want they’ll want.”

Mommy! Look at that car! We could get some for our friends…and us…it would be nice for everyone!”

I stood there thinking” Oh my word…what have I gotten myself into?

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My boys have no idea what to buy for a girl…all their ideas don’t apply…way to go mom!”

Then we moved to the gift bags…I asked them to pick a special one for each of their friends…as I was walking down the aisle I realized my two year old had grasped onto a handful of balloons that were blown up and of hanging with strings from the ceiling.

Explaining to a two year old that “No, in fact we cannot buy the balloons even if they make you happy and smiley!”, was not the easiest of arguments to win, but I persevered and we moved on.

While trying to find the perfect gift bag…we seemed to have become entangled in a bit of a balloon mess…I think the clerks thought that the circus had come to town and was shopping in their store.

As we were walking I spotted the detergent isle..I needed clothing detergent…I suddenly heard my 7-year-old say “Mommy, why are you buying something for yourself?” Remember? We’re not buying things for ourselves today.

Are you kidding me…I thought!

He truly thought it was for me…How funny! I had to explain…”Do you know what this is? It’s to wash our clothes…all of our clothes, for our whole family.” “Oh,  sorry Mommy, I didn’t realize”.

So, regardless of the craziness of our small shopping trip , the boys were very well-behaved (Thank the Lord), it was just too much decision-making for one mom and 3 boys to handle.

Although I am now exhausted from this hilarious and hair brained idea of a morning… I wouldn’t take it back.

These are the things that make motherhood so memorable, living in our own little storybook of a life perhaps.

As my 7-year-old said to me the other day ” Mommy, every good story has bumps along the way.” He sure was right.

Attempts at teaching generously and sharing may seem never ending and difficult…but quite frankly I’m still learning too. The more we give, the more we want to give. Giving is better than receiving.  I want to teach that all year round, not just at Christmas. To see someones face light up and spread cheer into their life somehow is priceless. To know that someones heart was made happy from a small gesture of kindness…that’s awesome.

Overall, our trip was successful and gifts were bought. We came home and filled the gift bags and are excited to give what we picked out for our special friends.

So whether your shopping with your kids for Cars, Monster trucks or strawberry shortcake…you can be sure to make memories…and learn some lessons along the way. I’m certain of it!

Ready to Advance…

As the darkness looms overhead with threatening of rain…yes…there are times that life brings the possibility of storms…yet…too often life does bring those storms that threaten the very core of our strength and seek to trouble our faith.Image Detail

Remember as you wake from your maybe  “sleepy haze” or “hurting heart”, although the darkness of this world reaches out to grasp you and take you as hostage…you have the unconditional love and favor of our Lord Jesus.

Come to me, all who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. ~Matthew 11:28

Our humanness is but fleeting, but our hearts can be forever His. Reject and rebuke the evil of this world. Satan has no charge over you or the life God created if you are made new in Him.

As a final word: Be strong with the Lord’s mighty power. Put on all of God’s full armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies and tricks of the Devil.  ~Ephesians 6 10-11

So many dealing with sickness of mind and body are thrust into a world that pain and constant fear may reside. We need not allow fear to cover our beings. God promises in His Word:

I will be your God throughout your lifetime, until your hair is white with age. I made you , and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you. Isaiah 46:4

And remember His commitment to us:

He gave His life to free us from every sin, to cleanse us, and to make us his very own people, totally committed to doing what is right. ~Titus 2:14

Regardless of you struggle, remember use what you have to glorify him. In your time of storm you may bless others with the passion for Christ that you have and your willingness to  stand against battle that rages and seeks for the surrender our faith, our commitment and our love for Christ.

Give yourselves completely to God since you been given new life. And use your whole body as a tool to do what is right for the glory of God. ~Romans 6:13

As of late my heart has been in a struggle. Not my faith, but my humanness.

Desiring  for my ability to handle the battle of anxiety to be over and won. I know the status of my struggle is far smaller compared to those hurting around me.

With this in mind, I carry a burden for you who are suffering in any capacity.

Through my own difficulties and trials, (although I so often wish them gone) I know the Lord has used them to soften my heart and create tenderness where there was not. It has opened my eyes to others in so many ways, and brought forth as sense of compassion for  hurts others carry.

Whatever your struggle, pray for healing certainly…but also pray that along the way he will strengthen you and prepare for whatever is to come.

I pray that today,, whatever struggle is before you…you are prepared to advance…ready yourself wearing the Helmet of Salvation(John 14:6), grasping tightly to the Sword of the Spirit(God’s Word, John 1:14)…guarding yourself with the Shield of Faith (Gal. 2:20), wrapped at the waist with the Belt of Truth (John 14:6), covered with the Breastplate of Righteousness (Matt. 5:6), and the Sandals of Peace strapped to your feet.( Eph. 2:14-15).